Chris Crocker, known primarily for the viral 2007 ‘Leave Britney Alone’ video and is also known to have performed in gay adult films and has recently come out as transgender.
In the video (which you can watch below), Crocker explains the feeling of not being entirely comfortable inside the gender binary.
“I am trans* in the sense that my gender is transcendant and I do not feel that all trans* people or all people that feel trans* feel completely one way.
“For me and I think a lot of trans* people we know we’re not ‘just guy’ or ‘just girl’. I’ve heard a lot about the third gender, whether that’s trans or what this is, I don’t think it’s so simple. It’s so undermining of trans people who are activists do not understand that not everybody who is trans* transitions. …it’s very possible that gender is compartmentalized, it’s sliced up it’s many things in one, it’s fragmented.
“I’m not sitting here saying that I’m not going to transition, I’m saying do not judge me because I identify as trans* and I may not look it on the outside. I should not have to prove to anyone that I feel female on the inside because believe me, my soul is that of a woman. Where I have a problem is that sexually, in the bedroom-yes I know, you can transition and keep your penis. Sexually, in the bedroom I identify as male.
“My entire identity outside of the bedroom is female. Just completely.
“I’m asking people to please understand that not all trans* people are the same. Their gender journey is not the same and we might all end up in the same place but our journeys are different at the end of the day. And that’s why it takes people sometimes until the middle of their life to figure it out. And I’m doing everything in my power every day to ask myself ‘What is it that’s gonna make me happy?’ and I don’t have the answer right now. But I can tell you that I know I’m female inside. ”
Since releasing the video on the 12th of May, Crocker’s comments have attracted a great deal of controversy and speculation regarding gender identity labels. Crocker has been regularly tweeting in response, and made some of the following comments:
If you are a transitioned trans person, I commend you! HOWEVER – It does NOT make you a GENDER EXPERT. Questioning my gender is NOT okay.
— Chris Crocker (@ChrisCrocker) May 30, 2014
I just told my family that I’m not going to conform – that I will be transitioning & moving from the south to a less hostile environment.
— Chris Crocker (@ChrisCrocker) May 30, 2014
Though I haven’t begun transitioning yet, I am VERY happy that I have let my true self win, no matter who leaves my life. This is it.
— Chris Crocker (@ChrisCrocker) May 30, 2014
I also think a huge part of me doing porn is the disconnect I feel with my male body. I’m realizing a lot now that I am confronting myself.
— Chris Crocker (@ChrisCrocker) May 30, 2014
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